Let my Journey begin, I am still alive!

I was having such a hard time grasping the idea as the days passed. My close family and friends know now, they have all been so loving and caring I wouldn't know where to begin at how they have humbled me with their kindness and support, I love you all dearly always and forever, thank you for making my life so beautiful. Being able to love is a choice, but being loved is a blessing. You all give me the courage and strength every day, all day.

The first week was my darkest days, I cried day and night, was angry with myself for getting myself to this point, over these past few years my body lacked malnutrition, I let myself get to the lowest of my lows, I thought surely my habits and ways have got me to where I am today. One night I thought to myself the way my family and I having been crying as though we are mourning the death of me, yet here I was STILL ALIVE! I snapped myself out of it quickly and thought at the rate I was going I am killing instead of better myself, I needed to change my way of thinking, my eating habits, my way of living, and reason of living, I felt I was reborn.

Remember, cancer feeds off of negativity, it overcomes you and your body, always remember to stay positive so you can overcome it. I had to remind myself that, after all this was my job helping those with cancer to stay positive and become better fighters.

I let this experience shine down on me as a ray of light through the dark tunnel that I have been stuck in all these years. I turned to my higher power and started to pray putting my soul at ease,  now I'm thinking twice before I put anything in my body , eating only whats good for me and boy how the magnifying glass opens up your eyes to the garbage foods we insert into our bodies, as though they are garbage bags and not something delicate to be taking care of. Educate yourselves from the many sources we have out there, aside from the net, its always better to be safe than sorry.

I know now, what I didn't know then.