Healing

Monday's surgery went well al hamdullah.
I am thankful to be alive and given each day as a blessing.

I can't explain the day, the day I woke up into reality. I know I have been blogging about my illness, about how I am slowly accepting it, but the day I came out of my surgery something in me told me this was it, I really am sick and I started to cry for a few seconds, not knowing what those feelings were, shocked? maybe relieved? since I came out safely, but something in me just released that day and now I know that I really do have breast cancer. Interesting, how it all feels, as much as I try to convey it to you all through my writing, its still not close enough to the real deal. I wish upon it on no one and to those who are going through something similar, I am now starting to understand. This may not make sense, none of what I've written so far, but somehow I finally woke up to reality. None the less, my feelings towards going headstrong with my fight has not changed one bit! Thank you once again for reaching out to me before and after my surgery xx

Wednesday is my scheduled appointment with my oncologist yaay! we are finally going to meet. Although I am given this whole month to rest and heal ( which is all I have been doing, getting tired of sleeping, I never thought I'd ever hear myself saying, two years ago I cried for just more than five hours of sleep!) we are only going to meet one another and just go over what will happen next month, treatment wise. Thursday I meet with my surgeon who I love and forever thankful for, I once heard "she has the hands of an angel" which she truly does! she will be checking up on my scars.

Embrace the power of positivity!
My quote of the week and I believe its going to continue that way for as long as I live. You see we are given this life to live as a gift, but sadly enough we do not appreciate its benefits until we are put in a tough situation such as so, but what if we are not given a second chance, then what..? Why don't we just try to make the best of it as though it is the only chance given to us? embrace the positivity that is roaming around you rather than knit-picking the negativity that is happening to you. My situation gave me two routes to choose from, one was the negative route which I am certain will kill me soon enough! or the positive one that whatever length of life I am given to live, I will at least say I have lived it happily. I know transforming our lives into living it at the best of our abilities is easier said than done, but no one said to start with a big-bang! start with something as simple as saying thank you to everything you are given each day and starting/ ending your day with a smile. I know the smile bit sounds silly, but believe me its crazy what a difference it will make when you wake up smiling, go ahead try it.. you know you want to :) Envision your happiness and make it happen.

keep holding on to your faith and you will be alright !
Until we meet again, may you have a week full of happiness and laughter coming from the heart.