Today is the day !

As I have prepared myself mentally and psychically throughout these last months, I am now ready to go through with my surgery. Everyone around me are asking, how I'm feeling, whats going through my head?... and this is what I feel....

As I reflect back on when the news was first announced to me, I have mentally and emotionally come a long way. As a young woman undergoing this battle, I've grown stronger not only because of my well being, but because of those around me. I have been loved, cared for, and supported up until this point, Al hamdullah for my Family and loved ones. If I have not said it often, I love you all from the depths of my heart, you are the reason I am strong and continue to grow stronger each day. Family and loved one's are the key ingredients for such a fight, along with all the medical aspects that come along with it.

Right now my thoughts are not fear nor angst, but more like anxiousness to finally get this tumor out of me safely, I hope and pray that it goes through successfully. I feel as though I am carrying a ticking bomb in my chest and if I do not remove anytime soon that it will shortly explode into my body...This surgery couldn't have come any time sooner, yet it has come and today is the date.

Thought of the week:

Always think positive, don't ever let words bring you down, for you are stronger than that. There will be tough days and there will be easy days, that's life. It is not and will never be perfectly balanced, but you make the best out of what is given to you. There will be many dark days, yet don't and never give up, a light will come which will shine through and lighten up your days. I promise you that much. Believe in yourself, you can and you will. Life is a mix of series you decided which will make or break you. You want to be known as the one who fought it through from beginning to the end. At the end of the day, At least you tried, it has made you who you are.

Today is my eldest sister birthday, a day like this couldn't have been anymore than a blessing in disguise. I wish for her nothing but health and happiness for today and many years to come, for she has been a great help and an amazing older sister just as she has always been. I am forever thankful to her. Happy Birthday Sam, I love you for always being you.